Tuesday, January 15, 2008 ♥
Last posted@8:04 AM
on the verge of self inflicted state of depression
.being EMO.
i think that all depression is self inflicted. nobody can make u or force u into depression. it's really up to the individual to control their own state of mind, be positive and put aside all the SHIT. control the SHIT, dun let the SHIT control u. am i right or am i right? =)
so anywayz, i haven't been bloggin fer the past 3 days. that's quite long fer me since i usually rant daily. there were some personal issues i had to deal with pronto, or i'd have gone absolutely nuts.
saturday was a super super bz day, had quite a number of appointments with various people at various places at all the far ends of singapore. haha. i saw vivian. went to her house. very convenient cause it was rite opposite jan's house. went to jan's house too. so me and vivian gossiped a whole lot, swooned at interjc pageant guys. she showed me her EC and and i drooled at mine.. *wink winkx. but din get to stay long, we'd barely started really talkin when i discovered that miss claudyne lim (john claud) was already at toa payoh!!! YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO WAIT FOR MY CALL!!!! so i flew over and we took bus to temasek poly to visit esther at her open house. went there fer the sole purpose of seeing her and her work. was fun. =)
after that took bus and train down to bishan to meet jan and sara again to celebrate sara's bday. we ate at swensens. yum. janice was trying to be all hip hop and stuff. lame jan.. -.-'' could've died laughin. i wonder if there have ever actually been cases where ppl suffocate laughing. i think it's very possible..i always feel like i might die whenever i laugh so hard. anyway. it was super fun. =))
thanks my dears, ur company really made my day.
janice is super unglam..
yes, as our tradition, we started to take random shots of ourselves. unglam shots that is. i mean..at least for janice. =) we were havin some photoshoot on the bus liddat. hilarious.
enough bout saturday. SUNDAY. nothin much, but i had the strong desire to go to church cos of my SHIT. i felt the urgent need to be in the presence of christians. haha. yea. felt really good to be in church. i felt sheltered, i felt safe, i felt like i never wanted to leave... there was little poem on the church bulletin that mornin that i really liked and shall now share with u guys :
i'd strengthen friendships, old and true,
and learn to cherish new ones, too;
to keep on learning and to grow
a little better as i go
to cast aside each grudge and grief,
and hold fast to a firm belief
that life is joyous, gracious, good,
when lived in terms of brotherhood.
to welcome fun, and play a while,
to lighten work and happy smile.
to thank the lord and everyday
remember him, and kneel to pray.
in gratitude for strength and health
and blessing which are all my wealth.
this year's a gift from god to me
to spend, to use, or set me free.
a whole new year is mine today,
may i be wiser, lord, i pray.
ok. hope this update has covered enough that i've missed. i shan't complain about my torture treatment in school today.
TUESDAYS REALLY SUCK!
♥ with love, meow
