Wednesday, May 21, 2008 ♥
Last posted@12:52 PM
all this anxiety makes me ill.
i'm praying everynight now. makes me realise how bad a christian i've been.i would think that that's what happens to lotsa christians, or maybe it's a ppl thing in general. only to really pray when they need something, when they want something.it's really bad..and i'm guilty.
my nights have been rough also. i'm still a littly ill from the throat infection. now i've got a seriously runny nose and cough. it literally leaks like a faucet..like my head would be down and plop it goes. haha. dun mean to gross u out. then at night i'd have these ridiculous nose bleeds..i might be losing serious amounts of blood..maybe i'll die. *shrugs
i changed my blogskin due to the following reasons:
it reminds me of London too much, thus making me more excited bout it, thus making any possible disapointment harder to bare
it's lame since i probably won't get the chance to go anyway..
i'm trying to stay optimistic, but i feel that if i let myself be too optimistic, that it just won't happen. cos generally if i expect something to happen it usually doesn't. that's my curse..
daddy also subscribed to lotsa new cable channels which just came into operation yesterday. i watched E! entertainment channel all night long and all morning long..i suspect i'll tire of it soon. o well..that's it fer this episode update of my pathetic boring life.
SeeYa
♥ with love, meow
