Friday, June 27, 2008 ♥
Last posted@9:59 PM
i am paranoid
or perhaps just dangerously intuitive
i have been having terrible mood swings lately. i find being left alone with my thoughts extremely dangerous, cos a lot of the time, i get stricken with some sort of mad anger, eventually leading to me smashing something, or ramming some body part into a wall or floor. It seems the happenings of the past few months, although all has already come to an end, has drastically, and perhaps permanently fractured my spirit and nature. i still find myself having to deal with the psychological aftermath of my anger, extreme disappointment, and sadness on a daily basis. i have yet to find closure, but i predict that this closure i may never truly find. i loathe myself.
anyway. for now, i must eat my emotions. i have to do certain things with good intention but inevitable bitterness. i want to do them, but can't help feeling my own pain and sourness whilst doing them. if u're confused bout what i'm trying to say, it's probably better this way. i finished wrapping shangyi's birthday gift. i'm so proud of my workmanship that i had to take a picture.
and this is just something me and cheng hong spotted on thursday at work. some random thing which we found damn funny. enjoy.
please forgive me for my emo-ness.
♥ with love, meow
