Wednesday, September 3, 2008 ♥
Last posted@8:38 PM
i don't like this feeling..
a mix of hopefullness, fear, and anxiety.
hopefullness - that i might still be able to attain my dream
fear - that my venture will end in failure and disappointment once again
anxiety - all the waiting drives me nuts
meanwhile, shangyi is flying off in less than 3 weeks time. i'm nervous and excited for her. it all seems so surreal. the thought of her leaving, getting on a plane, getting off only to find herself in LONDON!!! gorsh. it seems unreal. but it's going to happen. maybe the past year was all just a dream, and i'll wake up tomorrow having no recollection of anything that has happened. life would be better. i'm feeling numb now...but when the time comes, standing at the departure gate, waving dear shang off, i know i'll feel the pain.
and i'll wave u off
with smiles,
fears and tears
cause i'm happy for you
but i can't let you go
♥ with love, meow