Thursday, January 1, 2009 ♥
Last posted@9:52 AM
Oopx. ignore the previous entry. was seriously woozy.
anyway.
HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!!!!but honestly. today feels just like any other day. yesterday felt like any other day. what's the big deal bout new years. i dont noe. i do not feel the need to make resolutions, or to reflect. life is enough of a hassle without having to manage years. if u ask me i think it's just better living life day to day in one stretch. but none the less, since i don't want to be a social deviant, LET ME REFLECT ON 2008, and MAKE SOME 2009 RESOLUTIONS. (
resolutions are stupid since nobody ever follows them)
but firstly, i would like to thank sara - my dear dear fwen - who rescued me from lonerism on new years eve. =) if there's anything good about counting years, it's that it makes it easier to keep track and reminisce on good times with great ppl. thanks babe. i like our yakking sessions - sometimes their serious, sometimes their nutty - good diversity. haha. and guess we overestimated our alcohol tolerance. was already banging into things after a can. *shrugx** had a good sleep after that though. my limbs felt so comfortable. lol.
REFLECTIONS:- if u asked me how my 2008 was, i would surely say - 2008 was the worst year of my life. because the first major dream and hope i had which really meant anything to me at all came crashing down on me. after working so hard all those months only to lose it all in the end. that's a failure that will stay with me forever.
- on top of that - lost friends come in at a close second to lost dreams. i'm not a fair weather friend, but fighting a storm for so long can kill you, and that's not a sacrifice i am willing to take.
- but of course - have to acknowledge the many blessing which 2008 has brought - including getting all my 'A's for A levels, opportunities and experiences working in NY, letting me hold on to my time there just a little longer, getting into NUS(though i resented being there for a while, i now realise how blessed i am to be there), as well as new friends and closer relationships with old friends.
- in summary, 2008 has been a year of change, in my life, and in the world as well. shan't talk about world events, cos i could just go on and on and on. adding on, though i would say that 2008 has been the worst year of my life, it could also have been my best. i wouldn't be surprised if both the highest and lowest points in my life have taken place in 2008. yea. so i have to stop all my negativity and count my blessings.
RESOLUTIONS:
- hold on and maintain relationships with ppl close to my heart - whether they be near or far.
- change my slackerish ways and score at least a 4.0 cap for semester 2.
yeap! that's all the resolutions i'm going to make, cos they're the only 2 resolutions which i would actually really want to keep, and which are significant. no point making stupid, pointless, insignificant, shallow resolutions.
ok. i'm off to live in 2009.
♥ with love, meow
